Exam has finally come to an END.

Well, for this semester anyway, it has come to an end but there is still lots more to go in the future. But still, it is something worth to be happy about *or I should say my sleepless, stressful nights had come a pause for now*

I had sleepless nights these days. Insomia *yuck*. But it's true. I can spend my day studying non-stop *which means no afternoon naps* till late night, like practically 3-4 a.m. since the previous morning and my eyes get all droopy, threaten to close on its own if I don't get to bed soon. I'll then head to my bed, close my eyes, shutting my brain off for some rest.

Then.......

My brain starts to spin, think, voicing it's own opinion, projecting thoughts which is supposed to remain on the back of my head on its own, creating another sleepless night ending up me falling asleep only at sunrise & waking up a few hours later to study again.

Gosh.

I had tried all ways to make me sleep, music which varies from Kenny G's to house music, hot drinks from milk to coffee *coffee help me sleeps in normal time*, aroma-theraphy, mask, massage, drinking till drunk *oooo.. sensational*, swimming, skipping afternoon naps, tiring myself out, not sleeping for more than 4 hours in 2 days & many more idiotic, stupid ways but still my mind wouldn't shut *I have considered using the psysical way to shut it down but is afraid of the pain T_T*

I had previously planned that after the exam, I'll hibernate for days *which in Bunny's mind will be till Thursday which meant party day for him, right?* Stop thinking of partying & concentrate on Biology paper first! Ish!

Naaahh-niiigghhttt.

Loves.

Bloody.

*Gasp*

Ya, I literally mean bloody as in the oozing, red disgusting stuff. The bloody red liquid that flows in your body & out of a woman's body every month. Okay, I know period is much more than just blood but I didn't want to start explaining & boring you guys with what period is made off with all my biology facts *I miss my biology & chem classes*.

Why?? Why had it got to be now??

I didn't know much about other girls & I usually didn't experience pain or cramps like most other girls do, mine is a little bit worst then physical suffering. Mine normally came too much for too long & with my body already insufficient blood *I need blood donation*, it increases my risk to faint higher. Even in normal times, I have a very high risk to faint. One minute I'm talking & laughing, the next minute I faint & passed out for a while, then back again. Bunny experienced before in Canai Cafe while he was with me *he thought I was dead o_O* Besides that I'm constantly feeling dizzy. Maybe I should be a vampire & start going around, sucking other people's blood.

And talking about wrong my timing, my last paper is next Monday & in my current status, I can't pump like I previously did. Shit! Wish me luck anyway. I know my blog is pretty boring lately. Can't help it. I'm living a normal-student life now with only studies & examination.

Loves =)

Wait..... Forget to wish everyone around Happy Halloween. Enjoy yourself with this Hallmark event which comes once a year with your friends & dress up the best you could! No Halloween party for me because of exams. Happy Halloween!

Another tag by Constance =="

Crazy tags..

Rules:

The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
Each player answers the questions about themselves
At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog. NO TAG BACKS!

Starting time : 4:03 p.m.

Name : Cristine Cheng Yee Ven
Sisters : Nil
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 36
Height : 165 cm which was measured last year so I doesn’t really know what’s my height now
Where do you live : Sunday night to Friday afternoon: Sunway. Other than that, Cheras =)

Have you ever:
Fallen asleep at school : Confirm ada & that bad habit stays with me till now.
Broken someone's heart : Sad to say, yeah ==”
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Done that lots of time before.

Who was were the last person;
You danced with : Er, the last person. Let me think. Angel & Catherine.
Last made you smile : Ian Thien Vui Chau, the so called superman ==”
You last yelled at : My mom. I yelled at mom on daily basis. If we don’t yell at one another when we start chatting for more than half an hour, we will feel discomfort. That’s our weird way of showing of love to each other. I love you mom =)

Random
Do you like your hand-writing : No. I once had a teacher who comment that I had the potential handwriting to be a doctor. Figure it out ==”
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : My parents. They have this big big comfy king size bed that is warm & soft.
Are you a friendly person : Yeap.
Do you have any pets : Yeap. I still have my 8 years going to be 9 years old dog with me, Betto =) He’s old now but I still love him besides when he licks places he’s unsupposed to.
What are you doing right now : Answering the 2^nd tag my dear crazy woman Constance had tag me.
Can you handle the truth : I will rather know the truth then being lied. So yes, I can handle the truth no matter what.
Are you closer to your mother or father : Father.
Do you eat healthy : Yeap. My mom made me get used to it.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : My own room, my own bed.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

Fighting with my brother end up getting whacked & go running to my daddy mommy.

Playing “masak-masak”.

Yelling my lungs out for the ice-cream motor or the bread seller whenever they passed by my house.

Playing with my mom’s makeup.

And now the most memorable one, which is constantly soaking myself up with medicine. Understand? I was nearly dead when I was one month old, so end up I was constantly sick till around 12 years old, so its always MEDICINE for me. The doctor got so fed up with me that he gave my mom those ultra big bottle one which they store in clinics not the one they normally gave to the patient.

5 places i have lived in (or am living in) :

Forthress Hill, Hong Kong.

Tai Koo Shing, Hong Kong.

Ketumbar Heights, Malaysia.

Taman Supreme, Malaysia.

Bandar Sunway, Malaysia.

5 people I tag:

Sook Lee

Kay

Yan Sin

Yung San

And whoever who want to do it if you are feeling bored.

1. The person who last tag you is: Constance
2. Your relationship with him/her is: Crazy friend.
3. Your five impression of him/her: High self confidence, notty playful fella, gorgeous, comfortable & crazy!!
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Taking interview as a excuse to her boss & ended up singing K over at Red Box.
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: “We had a misunderstanding, blah blah blah” which is how we ended up as friends.
6. If he/she become your lover, you will: “We became lesbians o_O”
7. If he/she become your enemy, you will: We once was due to some misunderstanding, so we won’t be that stupid to be enemy once again.
8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: Miscommuncation.
9. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: Sing K & go yamcha^^
10. Your overall impression of him/her is: She’s a very very good girlfriend nia!
11. How you think people around you will feel about you?: Ugly & stupid T_T
12. The characteristics you love of yourself are: I don’t know. I love everything about myself.
13. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are: Hmm. Since I say I love everything about myself, the answer will be nothing.
14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Don’t know. *Bunny is beside me asking to type his name as my ideal person, but the answer is NO WAY*

Migraine.

Woke up at around 4 something in the morning.

The reason?

MIGRAINE.

It was like someone used a huge hammer & whack my head with it. It feels like my skull is cracking open. It goes on till morning.

Doesn't believe me? One day, if you ever had a serious migraine, you will understand my feeling last night.

I think my skull look these way during migraine.

Some time alone.

To all those who had been trying to find me throughout the weekend, I apologize.

I switched off my phone for three days, just switched it back on to find it cramped with miss calls notification & messages. I need some time alone so after my exam on Thursday & a night of sleep, I switched off my phone, needing some time alone from all & everything. The phone is now on again, and I'm back to my study mode for my next exam, Marketing, which is in one weeks away. Wish me all the best. Out of the few days, I didn't sort out much of my own thinking & emotions *yeah, which means I'm still a freaking emo bitch if I study from day till night with the stress* but I managed to gain plenty of rests & mentally ready to cramp & digest Marketing notes & lectures slide into it.

A Song That Sing.

-新不了情-

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

It means a lot. Touched the souls of many, including mine.

My dear Gillian's birthday =)

This is a post on 11st September 2008. Yeah, I know its so long ago but I only found the time to upload it now because the pictures were in my another comp, so forgive me XD

A very happy day indeed, its my dear's 19th birthday. Happy birthday dear! She's one of the very few, who was always there for me, been through thick & thin, supporting me all the way, showering me with her love & care. I'm blessed to have a friend like her and I'll do what I could to make her happy like what she did to me.

Her boyfriend, Chris, my fellow friend too XD had his birthday 2 days before her, so they decided to celebrate it with just a few friends again. They came over to BarCelona, so that it was nearer to me to go. It was such a last minute decision, ended up I baked her a cake.

Happy 19th Birthday Dear. Love you lots! Muacks!


My dear with my distorted birthday cake. Sorry, I was really rushing to bake it & 10x to all those who say that they enjoy the cake =)Me & my Dear *loves*
Me & Ikky =D One of my dear other babe. Knew her for some time dy. She's one of the "voice of reason" when you ever needed some.All the girls =) Please, the girl behind is a girl! She might be a tomboy but please don't misunderstand. She's deary to all. Finally, the happy couple, Chris & Gillian =) WooHoo. Chris is a dear friend of mine too in fact, he's always supporting me too. Its good to have your bestfriend's boyfriend as your dear friend too, because then we can always hang out together =D

One of my beliefs.

It was never the outcome that matters.
It is the process that matters.
It is if one has put in all her/his efforts, try her/his best in everything she/he do.
It is if one has done everything he/she can afford to do.
If one has done all the above, the one must realise the outcome is never in her/his power to control.
It is in the power of God & oneself and faith, where time, people, place & all little details matter a lot.
Try one's best & thou shall never regret.


This is one of my own belief for a long time, but sometimes, in reality, it is the outcome that matters but if you think back yourself, the outcome is matter to the people on your side to see, not yourself. You, yourself, is truly the one who gain in the process. I'm feeling down these few days & had been going through lots of thinking on my own. I remember this belief of my own and decided to share it. It is writen by me myself and if there is any mistake in the words, please forgive me.

Dying soon.

Please do not be suprised!

Cristine is dying soon *gasp* O_O

Lol

I can do some serious resting/chilling/relaxing..

Anything that can help me to release my stress & make me once the happy girl!

Help needed A.S.A.P!!

People & communication in between them.

I'm truly, utterly, tired, gone, whatever you guys call it.

These few days had been like, wake up at 10 something, study till I beh tahan end up falling asleep with my book beside me, woke up facing my book & continue to study. It's like a routine/cycle. Gosh. Tommy ended up saying I'm becoming a nerd o_O" *Shut up & go play your golf! Not everyone can study sports & play golf as their interest/studies on daily basis k?* Had been chatting online with lots of friends these few days, especially my darling Kay. She's back in UK, which makes me miss her even more. The saying goes, you never truly appreciate anything until it's gone. Which is kinda true because while she was back, I was super uper busy at that time, ended up telling myself I will find her next week or tomorrow since she's back for 3 months for good. End up I saw her well, quite a few times, but its never enough. Now she's back in UK.

In life, you or I or whoever get to meet 2 kinds of person. One is those who will come & go, in other words, just passing through your life. It doesn't matter if they are your friends or boyfriends. If they are not staying in your life for good, they are just passers-by. Another kind, is those who you met & is staying in your life. It doesn't matter if you know them just for a short while or they had been around for years before you notice them. I had met both kinds of person, learnt hard lessons from them, emotional-wise going up & down like a rollercoaster. Every night before I went to sleep, images of people came to my mind & my mind/heart surprised me. Take Amelia as an example, I'm sadly *filled with regrets* to say, we never get to know each other well enough when we was studying together last year *I miss those times* for some eh hem, private reasons which you woman might know or don't =X But she had been like what a true friend is supposed to be & I'm touched. At the same time, I had another few whom I thought was supposed to be my true friends while I was at Sunway *which was part of the reason* and ended up, they are just people who passed-by, dropping bits of memories here & there, and huge patches of injuries that I got to mend myself. There's much more similar cases that happened in the past like these one. Life's too short to meet enough people who will stay in your life & for me, its a sad case if you happen to meet one & ended up letting them go for people who doesn't matter.

Another thing that came into my mind these few days is about communication between 2 people. Misunderstanding tends to happen on a quite-a-frequent basis between 2 people which leads to arguments, fights, tears, anger, etc. Everyday some friend of mine will come to me & tell me this or that happened. I find myself in similar situations at times too. Ever wondered how you & someone can ended up at this situation? For me, most cases happen due to mis-communication. People tend to assume things like, "Oh I assume he knows it" "I thought it was this & that" etc. Don't keep things in your heart & if you really care for the opposite person whether it's your friend or lover, sister or brother, open up & tell them what you feel & think. Although they might not like it at first, at least they knew how you was thinking & what happen next depends on both of you. If you keep things in your heart, they will never know & misunderstanding might happen.

Loves =)