Random babblings!

Still stuck in Monash waiting for my next Authorship & Writing class *that's a one hell torture* but feeling happy for now. Just finished my presentation for Consumer Behavior. I went like almost last & I saw all the other people's slide & stuff I got effing afraid because mine was like totally different without a target group or a product yet! I did mine based on lots of research, reports & statistics on all groups from male to female, older woman to teenagers, rich to poor, etc. & I got it all right! That's what she *the lecturer* wants! Yeah! And I just got my assignment back. 72% for 2 days of work! Not bad! Thanks God =P And the weather is no longer that torturing, its kinda windy here now & I can still afford to walk around unlike the previous day, me & Mark ended up at some office lounging area & sat there & talk in hush up voices for an hour or so. I'm blabbling, feeling great for now & can't wait for dinner later. Hoping it'll be a great night anywayz.

Bye bye for now =P Happy holidays to everyone out there!

Thanks for everything and I'm sorry.

I finally had the courage to face one of my problem. I know I had been a coward, running away from it for some time and I really appreciate all the support my friends had given me all this while. I don't really know if the decision I made will be a decision I'll not regret in the future but I guess that's the best for me now. Maybe one day I'll regret but till that day, well, I'll leave it for that day.

I had been selfish enough in this relationship and the feelings had became unhealthy and had causes both of us enough pain. I didn't know how to tell you on the phone just now and one day, if you happen to visit this page, I hope you'll be able to read this. You had been wonderful to me, giving me a lot which I just take and take. You had leave a deep impression in both my mind and heart, leaving me a lot of memories, both sweet and bitter ones. You made me felt what it is to be loved, pouring effort into this relationship and I was being dumb, doing things that hurt you deep. When things get rough, I tend to run away instead of solving it together with you. When I see a side of you which I didn't know, I get afraid, I disliked it and try to find the easiest solution which is to ignore and pretended it wasn't there but it does not happen that way. You're a very good man and you know how to love and trust. I remember the night when you light up the beach and sang for me, remember the night when you light up candles and hug me tight, remember the little gifts you send to me, remember all the long conversation we had which lasted through the night, remember the song you sang to me at the airport, remember the sweet little messages you gave me for the first month, remember all the sweet little things you did for me and of course, I remember me myself doing all the things that you hated. Lol. You're special to me, you once was and always will but its time to make the decision, not letting things drag. In one way, I'm glad to hear that you're okay with this decision, in another way, I'm disappointed? sad? to know that you're okay with this decision. I guess I'm being selfish. I just want to say, thanks for everything you had done for me and you had taught me many stuffs. I hope that whatever is on your mind now, you'll succeed in doing it and I believe you will. You're a good man and deserve someone much better than me. You'll find a girl who will love you much more than I do, much more giving then I'm and be happy with her. Thanks for everything, Ian Thien.

Its 6:13 p.m. now & I can imagine the jam outside Sunway & over at Bandar Tasik Selatan so I opt to stay over in Monash's libray with Soo to do my marketing research for a new perfume launch in Malaysia but I'm here blogging & playing facebook so I guess I'm going in the wrong direction. Its unhealthy. What a unproductive day but I can't help it! I'm in no mood for all my uni work & I guess I'll be dead by Wednesday. According to Soo, I need someone or something to motivate me & she got motivated up all sudden because of nothing o_o" Haha. Anyone interested to motivate me to the right direction?? And I mean the RIGHT direction, not the other direction which is all-fun-&-no-studies which will lead me to my death when the results is out! I dunno what I'm blogging actually =P It's nothing. Don't be bothered =) Anyway I got some pictures taken last week, will update it soon! Bu-bye^^!

Updates =)

Okay, after much thoughts & re-reading my own past few posts, I decided to delete the crappy emo posts cause having those few posts around makes me feel shitty & kill my mood to blog at all!

The next question would be: Am I feeling better now?

And the answer will be: Hell yeah =) I'm feeling much much better with all my friends around me & getting addicted to Restaurant City over in Facebook *I know its lame! Shoot me!*

Ended up spending most of my holidays at home resting, doing my Freudian's psychoanalysis assignment over at the uni's lab with bunnykins & ended up playing Restaurant City!! Anyhow it was San's birthday on Saturday, did our hair & stuff, went over to her house, chilled around while waiting for others to arrive then start hanging around at home, drinking with her mom & friends. Lolz. Nen came after & we left early to fetch Kent & his wife, went over to Damansara Perdana for german beer & red wine. Kinda love the atmosphere over there. Reminds me of Hong Kong, open air bar & windy weather.

Due to my emo-ness lately, I didn't bring my camera anywhere I go so no pictures =)

I did lots of thinking & there's more to come but I guess there's stuff I gotta face & deal with it a.s.a.p.

Till then, its buuu-byeeee^^"

Loves =)

1 down. 2 to go.

Stress stress stREsssSSSSS!!!!!

Business Law this thursday...

Authorship & Writing next monday....

Its killing me.......

ArrrGGGhhhhh!!!!!

Poppy moments.

Had mahjong sessions with kor & his friends last Saturday over at Yong's house. I guess it had been around 5 years since I last met Yong. Went to have my hair wash since kor wants to cut his hair. Its another small world, apparently a friend of mine work there as the senior stylist *someone who I had lost contact with for maybe 2 years?* Makan kat Sungai Long after that when we decide to go Poppy so all of us headed home & get prepared. The only sad news is that kor decided to ffk on a last minute decision. Aiks ==" Nen came over to pick me up with Kit & met up with Kenry & his friends over there. Poppy is Poppy. Pack as usual with its Saturday crowds & the music is still kinda old with a few exception. Poker face is still my favourite =) Oh and Nen make me & him do the so-called-opening-session on the dancefloor. The club was already packed at that time but the dancefloor is still effing empty as in not a single soul there so Nen tagged me along & start dancing in the middle & wow, after 2 songs, it was fully pack. So called mission accomplished =)

The crowd dancing the night away.
- Jacklyn - Chong - Me - Nen -My 24/7 buddy. If I ever need support from someone for spilling illogical-out-of-the-world-talk, he is definitely the one!
Jacklyn & me!
Kissy kissy! Thanks babe *wink wink*
Me & Yan. She reminds me of Eunice =="
Candid moments!
Look who's here! Stephanie~ Been really long since I had seen her.
Haha. Can't wait for your finals to end & my break to come. Lets go Eve or someplace! And I'm sure Ken will not kill you. No worries *wink*
The king of weirdo!

I remember taking more pictures but too bad, its not in my camera so I assume it'll be either Jacklyn's or Stephanie's! Its a dramatic night *eyes rolling* but I'm glad everything end up okay for now =)

Night out to Classic.

Argh. At least I fulfilled my promise to Ginn =P Didn't really feel like going out that night because was starting to get sick *am still sick now =C* but when Ginn called me for god-knows-how-many-time & I had promised her back in the past to hang out with her, I decided to join her over at Station 1 located at Pandan Indah. Met her friends & was playing card games when they told me they are heading to Classic because some friends of their is dancing/singing there for the night as a replacement or something =="

Everybody, meet Ginn =)
- Bell - Me - Ginn -
Shit, I forget this guys name! Sorry! I'm really really bad at remembering people's name =C
Vincent on stage! He gave me his name card which is writen with the position "Financial Advisor" but he teaches part-time dancing & he can sings too. A fan of Jacky Cheung I assume =P
Ah Xing & Ginn
Bell & Ah Xing
Cheers people!

It was a great night. Everybody was being extremely nice & friendly & kinda click during conversations. And Classic wasn't as bad as I thought it was. Kinda nice, something like Devils.

Day out with Nen.

It had been really really long since I saw Nen so we decided to go for dinner but we ended up going out earlier because he wants to get a new modem-router & pendrive in Low Yat. One thing leads to another, we went over to One-Utama next to shop. Didn't really see anything I like but Nen was able to get a few tops & shirts. Oh! And we got really cute turtles & lame lambs! The face of those plushies are really stoned! Will take a picture of it soon & post it up. If you guys ever sit in Nen's car, notice a turtle's back sticking out of the compartment like he's stuck or something.
While waiting for Nen to try on his tops.
I decided to take a few shots. Haha.
The slippers that Nen loves lots from French Connection. Was really nice but too bad, the material used was too hard & causes pain & sores if worn too long so after much persuasion & trying over & over again, we decided not to buy it!
Really cute boxers from Zara!

Next stop was The Curve! Tried to shop over here too but I couldn't find anything I like AGAIN! Frustrating! Grr. So we decided to go back to one of our favourites! Bubba Gump!
Here comes our all shrimp feast!
Mango-something & Vanilla milkshake!
Our appetizer, something like broiled shrimp. Could taste the sweetness of the shrimps with tint of garlic.
My main course, a new item on the menu. Shrimp cooked in some soup served with rice & bread.
Nen's baked seafood rice which of course, is filled with shrimps also =="

So we ended up leaving there by getting our body poisoned *according to Nen =="* We wanted to go for a movie but Cineplex wasn't offering any midnight show that day =C Met up with Nen's friend, Ken *oh my god, another Ken!* & his girl where they started smoking pipe ==" Ken is a really hilarious guys & I really hope his problem will go really well. Of for you guys info, Ken is currently working at ergh One FM *if I'm not mistaken, couldn't be really sure which radio station he's working at* as a sound engineer.

Choco Choco!

Decided to had a shopping session with San 2 Sundays back, brought her over to Chocolate Lounge since I was craving for something sweet.
Yummylicious drinks & berries. Fattening but delicious all the same!
Me & San.
Muacks!
Ahhhhhh Ummmmmm!

Manage to bought a really nice dress from Six Sense & a green top from some other boutiques over at Bangsar. It was a good exercise, with all the stairs climbing!

I'm still feeling bad.

Everybody were concerned with the state I'm currently am.

Thanks guys for trying to be here for me & cheer me up, keeping me accompany most of the time.

I guess I need more time.

Some were asking me how bad I'm now.

I need house music to make me sleep.

Go figures.

For those who had known me not long, through all the worst time in my life, I listen to music like trance, techno or house to sleep. It makes me feels better because of the lack of lyrics & its soothing for me. Pure music. Psycho-ing one self.