A lil' update with some awfully nice pictures♥

As usual, I stayed away for days from my blog again. Maybe my life's just too death to be blogged about. The reason that I'm blogging now, is not because of the blog or anything but I just need a reason sneak a lil' time off my reports & quizzes & assignments. Skipped the whole day of lectures just to catch up with my work. Was really busy for the past week, same old reports here & there, a research field trip for my Ecology studies for the whole weekend, in which I got bitten with more than hundreds of mosquitoes. Literally it was the mosquitoes' New Year that day in the forest & I'm apparently their main dish. My sensitive skin reacted real badly to the bites. It went swollen & red & it hurts & burns like mad. When I thought it was just about to get better, the after/secondary-allergic-reaction came! *Bang* Went to the doctor who gave me an injection right on my right cheek butt *sobs*, lotsa medicines that makes me go dizzy & woozy & an MC for 2 days which ended me on bed sleeping off the 2 days. So here I'm in the uni library camping, trying to catch up with my workload by tomorrow!

Anyhow the pictures from my field trip was not uploaded yet but I manage to found some really interesting shots of the photographer that came along with us. These pictures was from the field trip last year but it was taken at the same place & oh well, the pictures was just wonderful. Superb. Pictures courtesy to Yong, the photographer & our lovely demo too.

Enjoy =)

The beautiful sunset from the 100 years old lighthouse located in Bukit Melawati. The vast forest beneath that, oh well, that's two of our research spots.

1st research spot: The Mangrove. Practically, its the kind of habitat located near to rivers/oceans & its all muddy. No hard rock soil for you to walk in, plain mud.
And you can sink really deep in if you walk in the wrong spot. Above is a picture of a senior sinking into the mud, you can practically see half of his body went into the mud. That's how deep it can does! Beware people
Found this shot in the folder too. No idea if it's a worm or a caterpillar but it sure do look interesting *breathing hard.. still trying to overcome my own phobia towards worms*

2nd research spot: The secondary forest which hundreds of years ago, used to be mangroves. In it, you can come upon hundred-years-old mangrove trees!

I just love all this shots. Shots of nature, the creation of God.

And this is our 3rd research spot, located at Gombak: The primary rainforest.

The unpolluted Gombak stream/river inside the forest. If you are to drive in Gombak area, you can see the river most of the time but it definitely looks way much different from here, yellowish, muddy & polluted. This is how its supposed to be in fact given the chance that we human take cares of it & not pollute it for our own convenience.

Beautiful isn't it?

[Lots of people was surprised when I decided to switch from my Double Degree Business & Communication course to the current one, Bachelor of Science in Envinronmental Management. Most of my friends did come up to me and ask me the infamous million dollar question "Why?" Oh well, I seriously had no answer for it. Interest perhaps? And the knowledge I gained through this course might not be the million dollar tip on how to invest on the future markets or how to be the best CEO but its something really meaningful, given you the basic understanding of this place we're living in & all its other inhabitants. In a way, it gives me more insight of lifes, at the same time, more questions towards it too. But for now, I'll just try my best to walk on this path that I've choose.]

Sook Lee 21st Birthday♥

Once again, I manage to stay away from my blog for God-knows-how-long. Guess I'm not really into blogging mood these days. And I manage to forget how good it feels to have a place I can vent out all I want. Yes, I have Twitter for that purpose, but oh well, the limited word count for each post really pissed me off at times, so blog is still the place where I can write all I want even if it ends up longer than my essay? I pity my friends who read this, or maybe if they need a bed time story, they can just click in here & read & sleep. Lol.

Uni has started again & I'm trying hard to change my bad lazy habits & trying to attend more lectures & tutorials & do all my laboratories works & shits. But habits are hard to change but I'm still working hard on it. Want a change of lifestyle too, wants to stop wasting time on useless things & that include useless people too. Sleeping at the right time at night is a tough thing to do these days & that leaves an exhausted me the following day since I'm no longer in the holiday time zone where I can sleep till whatever time I want to. Oh well, that's life.

The pictures below are taken from one of my best girlfriend's 21st birthday, Sook Lee, which I organised for her. And oh yes, her birthday is during January, which was 2 months back. Yes, a much much delayed post but looking back at my blog's achieve, I realize I haven't even blog about my Melbourne trip & my birthday, both which happen last year so don't be surprise one day if you guys suddenly see two ONE YEAR OLD posts one day... But that will be the day...

Back to my very-the-dear Sook Lee's birthday. She wanted to celebrate at the place I celebrated mine last year which was K-Box, no clubs & bars for her as well but ended up I suggested a nice restaurant, just the place for a private party/dinner with a few of her friends. Memorable enough for her I hope. So dear, is it good enough for you? Or you had imagine it to be better & I failed you miserably?

The birthday girl♥The black & white table setting. The party was black & white themed but forgive me for adding the colourful "Happy Birthday" banner thing at the back, just want to do it =]

Cupcakes that reads "Happy 21st Birthday Bitch" as the cake & dessert =]
Rushed there right after work to get the decorations & settings up. Had the last minute confirmation & plans with the manager over there too. By the time everything is done, its time for a short break. Chilled outside with a glass of white wine♥ Loving the environment lotsa!
Came across these 3 utterly adorable siblings outside, playing at the playground.
The toddler♥
And the brother who came back and ask me to "take another picture" of him because he dislike the first one. Lol! Definitely not a camera-shy-kid!
Me & the birthday girl♥
- Jeleine - Sook Lee- Cristine -
Another shottt with flashlight!
And definitely the wrong shot of me & the 9 years brother-sister-relationship, Tommy Chin! People do get the wrong meaning, but oh well, who cares♥
The primary school mates! Cheers♥
With the cupcakes♥
Group pictureee! Barely fit into the camera. Was it a total of 28pax huh?
Big MaMa ♥ Sook Lee ♥ Cristine
End up chit-chatting with Big MaMa the whole night after dinner. Catch up time because when I flew to Kota Kinabalu, she wasn't there so we decided to do the catch up session in KL. One of the Sabahan I grew to love♥ lots.
Last duty of the night, to count the money & pay the bill. End of work! Hooray!
Headed next to Decanter @Sri Hartamas for drinks with the primary schoolmate. Oh, I think I forget to mention, the private dinner was organised @ B I J O U, Mont Kiara. Nice food, nice ambience, nice drink. Definitely the place to go♥
Me being the poser with the alcohol while my brother Tommy decided to look all serious & smiling. He's definitely the wild one, not me k?!
- Tommy - Me - Jenn Lim -
Me & Jacob the biscuit
Jeleine & me.
Kissing the glassss.. Poser betull... Hahaaa...
To drink or not to drink?
Well, wine is still the love♥ of my life. Bought a bottle from Decanter which was really really good at a really cheap price. Product of South Africa, medium bodied, definitely good. Headed to friend's place for a heart2heart / wine night session after. It was a hell out of a night, definitely one of the memorable ones in my life.

[I'm feeling useless at the moment now after everything that had happened recently. In a way, it makes me feel myself that I had managed to fail in almost everything, business, studies, relationships & maybe even friendships huh? I know it might sounds wrong to say it, but I definitely misses you at times like these. I miss the way you care for me, the way you will be there for me despite the time I call you, the way you will not ask a single question & listen to all I had said before you judge or comment & most important, the way you will offer me a hug before & after everything. And the way you will smell me even if I had not showered all day. Lol!]

Trying to stand on solid-hardrock-ground.

It gets scary sometimes on how cruel the reality can be. How the reality can be so ugly when minutes ago, you was just in your own fairytale land with the most beautiful view & mind. Once again, I'm jot back down to the reality. I guess its good though, I seriously had to keep my feet *and mind* on the ground for the following 2 & a half years. I have no idea am I going to pull through all this shit happening around me, friends, family, relationships, studies, career, healthy, etc. but the old Chinese saying goes "When the boat hits the dock, it will be straight *or it just had to be no matter what*". Its a direct translation from cantonese. Its pretty lifeless but I guess I really had to keep my foot on ground for now. Getting myself floated up into the skies for God-knows-how-long then get dragged/dumped/jotted back down to hard solid land is never fun. And its never something that will me feeling oo-oo & aa-aa.

[Its time to wake myself up & un-blind myself from the lies & deception that you & I had created together. Its time for me to see that you're not who I thought you were, that your actions were just another act of yours for me to see the way you want me to. But sometimes, when a person went so far to act in front of you, acting so true that you believe it, and by believing it, it keeps you alive & well, you just want to believe it longer. But its never healthy to do so. It goes back to the same question, to do the right thing or to do the happy thing?]

A song that sings.

Been pretty emo since 2 nights ago & like always, I'm still living & breathing. Never had the courage to do anything too crazy, too dangerous. People who have me on twitter or who happen to read my twitter during these 2 days will be reading all my emo tweets & wonder "Wtf is wrong with this bitch?"

Yes, it is related to relationship problems in a way.
No, I'm not in a relationship.
No, nobody dumped me.

In fact, when he told me that he's afraid I'll be mad at him. the answer is "No, I'm not mad at you. I'm just feeling shocked, confused & mad at myself. You didn't hurt me, but I hurt myself by believing in you & everything you told me."

I had no idea how am I to trust you in the near future, because, you can frigging told me you love me 2 weeks ago & 2 weeks later, *taaadaaa* you're in a relationship. WOW. Oh wait, I didn't finish the sentence, you're in a relationship with another girl. Okay, I think its starting to sound confusing now. 2 weeks before, we*me&him* had a long talk, we never planned to get into a relationship because of our own same reasons which both of us agree on. And all the words you told me, the way you treated me all these while, even in this 2 weeks & suddenly, you're in a relationship with someone. *Uh & the funny part is, she is not someone who's there but here too. So does it makes a difference?* So does that means what we said was just meaningless?

And the most important part, what you told me after you went "into a relationship".. But I respect you neverless & I'm not going to write it out here because its supposed to be private. It was what you told me that make me so lost, so confused, so afraid to believe anymore. I had no idea how to differentiate the truth & lies from your words. And if what you're telling me is the truth, then does your action point towards the opposite?

No, I don't want you to be in a relationship with me.
No, I don't want you to break up with her.
No, I'm not angry at you.

You taught me an important lesson neverless, sometimes, it hurts to trust a person with all your heart & then you realize that everything is a fraud, a lie. Betrayal maybe? I had no idea.

And when I told you I sent my blessings to you & her to be happy together & to love & cherish one another, I really mean it because I don't want you in person nor your heart. I just want you to be frank with me as a friend. That's all.

If you people know mandarin, read the lyrics of this song, or go to the extend of downloading it, because its the way I'm feeling now. Like I said, I blame no one but myself for all this shit happening right now, this moment. Its a very famous old song by Kelly Chen.

陈慧琳 - 是我不好

我都醉了
灯光在我眼里都模糊了
为什么还清清楚楚记得
那天那句要我把你忘了
怎么能忘了
除非不呼吸
走到哪里 才躲的掉回忆
离别就是让人怀疑着自己
连恨不恨你都不能确定

也许这一切都是我不好
是我不知道
只有真心留不住男人一个拥抱
就算眼泪会是温柔的守候
可是爱如果是求来的
我也不想要
是我不好
是我还忘不掉
心痛只能用时间来消耗
毕竟当初是我选的一个
给不起我永远的人
就算是我不好

我都醉了
灯光在我眼里都模糊了
为什么还清清楚楚记得
那天那句要我把你忘了
怎么能忘了
除非不呼吸
走到哪里才躲的掉回忆
离别就是让人怀疑着自己
连恨不恨你都不能确定

也许这一切都是我不好
是我不知道
只有真心留不住男人一个拥抱
就算眼泪会是温柔的守候
可是爱如果是求来的
我也不想要
是我不好
是我还忘不掉
心痛只能用时间来消耗
毕竟当初是我选的一个
给不起我永远的人
就算是我不好

A lil' translation on the chorus for those who don't understand: "What happened was due to my own fault & my own stupidity for not knowing that loving a person with a heart so true is insufficient to make a man love back & stay. If the relationship were to come because of my tears & begging, & not because of you feeling the same way like I do, I rather not have it. It's my own fault for being unable to forget what we had & the only cure for the hurt & pain I'm feeling now could only be heal through time. And I got no one but myself to blame for choosing a guy that wouldn't give us a future. Its my own fault."

Okay, I know this translation kinda sucks but I couldn't think of better words for it with the retarded brain of mine. Forgive me. Try listening to it though. Its a really nice song.

If you're interested in downloading it, click here.

Good night people.

1st day of Uni is the ♥

Monash has officially started their lectures, tutorials & labs which mean I'm to resume my uni life again for God know how many more years. Drove all the way back to uni for my first & only frigging one hour lecture *which consist of introduction of the course =="* & I'm free. My all time favorite herbalist bunnykins then pergi ber-chillin' with me at the much missed place SnowFlake @ SS15! Just the right food on hot humid weather we are having these day! Sat there catching up, chatting all kind of nonsense & non-nonsense & practically waste our time there till Evonne & Andrew arrived, Evonne being the sweety brought cornflakes & cupcakes for us & Andrew brought huge lolli for bunnykins & me from Brunei.

Asia Cafe the next stop for solid food for the hungry couple. Weather got a lil' too hot that we decided to head up to the pool-foos area for air-conditioned area & a drink!

The all time common-favorite. It's a sad case that Hoegaarden is not available in most places yet!And a few round of pool with the babe & boys! All I can say is I manage to lose all the round. They went foos next, which I had totally no idea how to play after all these years! If you think my pool sucks to the max, wait till you see me foos cos you'll think you're dead & had gone to hell!

Back to Evonne's crib for mahjong later with Juice. First time seeing him so adorable & cute while playing mahjong! Mahjong is going to remain my favorite past-time weih♥ First day of uni was a lil' too chillin' & I do feel guilty for it =[ But I can never say NO to a good drink & a few rounds of mahjong can I? Argh!

Back to earth CRISTINE CHENG! Time to aim distinction on all my units!! Oh, wait a minute, drinks with the girls tomorrow first =P

Na-night people! Much loves♥