Monday, November 30, 2009


After of being frequently asked "Do you have a Twitter account?" I finally had one today "thanks" to someone. Oh well, I guess it's still pointless since I had no idea what Twitter is all about. Someone care enough to enlighten me what it is all about instead of being like someone who created one for me but left me to myself to figure it out? Please, I'm lost. What's with the following & follower thing & it's somehow linked to my Facebook account as if fb's update on status isn't enough? "I believe your followers will increase in no time. Hehe." commented by my dear friend & I couldn't imagine who-on-Earth will want to follow this pathetic account of mine since someone told me all I had to tweet about is what I'm going to do or what I did? Huh??? If you can see me now, you probably see question marks on my head. Shoot me for being a dumbass on technology =[

It's 2:15 in the morning now & I'm still bright awake. Tried all the possible ways to get myself to sleep but my utterly-small-single-eyelid-eyes is still not willing to close. God bless. And if you happen to look out the window tonight, you'll probably see a almost-full-moon outside. Probably be full tomorrow. Been seeing if for a few nights, it's beautiful.

To those who are going to sleep or who's already sleeping, have a good night & sweet dreams. To those who are still awake like me which will include most of my friends, we have to change these bad life habit of ours. I had read something on sleeping late shorten the life span! We're all gonna be dead really young!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Adrian's 21st Birthday!

Was going through my phone today when I saw these video & pictures taken during Adrian's birthday which was two months ago. Gosh, how much I misses him! He's such a clown, always trying to make a fool out of himself just to cheer others up but he always ended up looking cute & silly. Maybe his wasn't the image he meant to project for his fans anyway because at time it makes me laugh inside seeing him during his work time but in a way, the TV series, A Cup of Love which shows him some what dumb is cute. And the Vogue short film he stares in as the "evil twin" was some what another image of him. Too bad that the short film will only be released in the short film festival over at US which means I have to get my US buddies to get it for me! Can't wait for it to be out next year during the film fest! I remember once when we were chatting he told me it wasn't easy to be a clown. That I agree. To us, you are always one of a kind special friend & I missed you badly =[

A few close friends decided to celebrate his birthday, nothing big since his manager & company did a bigger bash for him back then. Ours was just a simple Japanese BBQ buffet supper over at KL. My 1st time over there & the food is definitely on my list of recommendation. Some might told me that its because its supper & stuff but we got no choice =[ 1st, some of them are still working at dinner time including these busy birthday boy & 2nd, its hard to celebrate his birthday in a clouded space without drawing much attention! I had to admit, he do have quite some fans although I had never heard of him till I know him but forgive me with artists & singers & bands & actors etc. I guess for local, he's quite the star but after knowing him, I can see he has the talent so work hard my dear, whether its in Taiwan or KL!

Some pictures & video below but all in low quality as its recorded through my urgh-urgh-phone & its really dark there!
Happy Birthday Adrian! Always still the clown & running away from the cake after you blow it doesn't help you to escape you fate of being fooled!
Didn't really remember what he was doing anyway.
And you get a real cake at the end k? So stop complaining about all the little cupcakes & desserts we used at the first place!
Getting ready to go down on the candle...
Set.. Go!
We went easy on you dy!
Happy 21st birthday Adrian & may your wish come true, whatever wish you made & put a good use to my birthday present. Hmph! You're a bad guesser.

By trying not to hurt both of you, I ended up hurting myself.

Managed to fall asleep around 4? Or was it 5 in the morning? Judging by how it looks, today is still ain't getting any better. The sleep was filled with nightmares & these days, I'll always ended up sleeping with the lights open. The house is starting to feel like a dark room to me. It had been about a year since I have decided to move back to Cheras to my parents but issues that had always been there is still there & its just getting worst. To put it in general/lightly, maybe its call the infamous-generation-gap but the way me & my parents communicating are getting worst. Its going two different way now, totally the opposite direction. I always remind myself not to be ungrateful, not to be unsatisfied because there is a lot of people out there doing much worst then me but then, do they really know what I really wanted?

I believe in them & I know whatever they did or they planned was all for my good but had they ever tried to understand my needs & wants or stand in my place & think as me for even a little moment? Their mindset is always on the idea of them being more experienced than me, them knowing what is good & bad since I'm too young to think wisely like they do. I admit I'm still just a young toodle, toodling my way in the society but I'm born with a head-strong-personality & crave for much independence. I love to stand on my own & fall on my own & learn from my mistakes. I'm never a person who sit & listen & learn from stories. At the same time, the society had changed for the past 20 years & still will change & there's thing that they must at least try to understand. My family had gone through worst time, dad being really broke & bankrupt & whatever & his childhood wasn't a material-filled-one hence he ended up working hard providing us with almost everything, including studies. I understand the study part but what about others? I just want a little room where I can grow on my own instead of them creating a shaped-box and putting me inside, making me grow according to how they want me to be.

I love them a lot & doesn't have the heart to bring myself to say things I'm thinking because it will hurt them deeply but at the same time, I'm hurting myself. I'm sorry because I can never be the daughter you want me to be. I tried my best to be the daughter you want but it just hurts me deeper & deeper & I'm getting emotionally unstable these days. By trying hard not to hurt you both, I ended up hurting myself.

A new look!

I know what you guys must be thinking. Its about time I get my lazy ass off my bed & do something about my blog. Well, I did but I'm still one lazy fella so I went searching & downloading ready-made backgrounds instead of doing one on my own. Credit to the one who made this wonderful background*& credit to me for being hardworking tonight*. Re-doing the whole blog thing is just a way for me to get my mind off some issues. Well, I'll leave the issue for some other time since the issue had been there for years & writing about it a few days later isn't going to change anything.

Anyway today was a fucked up day*sorry for the foul language* but of course, there's a few hours of "light" where 2 of my Subang's wise men came all the way to Cheras to find me. The other night dinner was awesome with Joe Win being late & Evonne & Kimberly joining us for drinks later. Did all kind of crazy stuffs & I guess I better not return to Jaya One for at least another month! Everybody was staring weih! Pictures will be up soon I promise =] KL is dead for the weekend with most of my friends spread throughout various places in Malaysia but anyhow most of the fellow people are finally coming back from Melbourne next week & of course, this include Amelia!

Ergh, anyway I guess its not advisable to write when I'm feeling utterly depressed. Maybe I'll write later if I'm feeling cheerful. Or not.

Stay tune anyway since its my holiday now & I have so much free time with nothing to do at all so if you are interested in me or my fucked-up life or you are just like me with too much time too little to do, well, just drop by. See, now I'm crapping. Sook Lee is gonna love this. Oh, btw, Sook Lee, you own me one much much detail story!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Uh uh. Shit. After too long of being away from my blog, I'm out of words!

Just a simple "Yeah! It's holiday!" & ergh "I'm back"

Seriously, brain freeze weih. Or maybe I didn't use my brain for too long & its starting to fail on me?

Dinner with my Subang ergh "3 wise men" tonight! Can't wait. Mexican. Wings. Beers.

Thursday, November 19, 2009


My time zone is utterly upside down for the moment. This is the consequences spending too much time at Sunway for the past month but the fun was good but living in this time zone since I'm back at Cheras is a torture! So many stuffs had happened for the past month, it made me understand more things, clear the confusion off some past questions & of course, it leads to more new questions! One thing for sure is I'm finally 2 0 & I just wanna say a quick thanks to all my friends for everything they did & their birthday wishes. My family is not to be leave out of these for the excellent dinner at Millenium & my grandparents flying all the way from Hong Kong just for it.

Exams are finally over & I did badly for it but now its a 3 month long holiday. I'm getting a feeling that there will be lots of changes next sem but till then, I'm going to savour every precious moments & enjoy as much as I could =]

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Quattro night out.

This post that was supposed to be on a night out for the end of September & I guess you guys can see how late it is. Ah Yang gave me a bottle he had over at Quattro since the last time he went he opened up 2 but only drank 1 and well, I had locked myself away from the party scene for months. Brought my honey Soo & darling Angel along & a "driver" in case anyone became runk. Later on, my bunch of Monash brothers came along, glad that they came! Argh.. Pictures time =)
My new dress. Bought it over @ Bangsar. Was on sales & was really worth it. Me likey =]
Me & Angel
Posing @ the entrance while waiting =]
And of course, my honey & me weih =]
Argh.. I'm lazy after uploading so many pictures. Just look at that the pictures. No more captions =D