Moments of lost & confusion..

Feeling a lil lost.. A lil confused.. A lil lonely.. A lil of everything.. All kind of mixed-up emotions..

Sometimes I just think too much.. But I can't help thinking..

There's a lot of 'what-if' & missed opportunity..

But feeling regret is just useless sometimes as it don't change the facts..

But that doesn't mean that I won't be feeling down, unhappy, lost, all kind of negative feelings..

Sometimes I know I'm being selfish.. But I just can't help it..

I try to control and act the way I should, instead the way that I had acted..

I don't really know what I myself really want now.. Whether it is relationship, money, friends, companionship, fun, the list goes on..

But for now, I will try my best to focus on my studies & my family & my close friends..

I had lost faith & trust among some people that really mean alot to me..

It's hard to trust some people again..

And it's hard to give up on people that I really trust & love.. Close friends & family..

Cause they mean so much to me and they are part of who I am today..

Being selfish makes me myself happier.. Doesn't really need to care about others..

But at the same time, I feel like it's wasting precious moments of mine..

Time passed and it's a lost.. Wasted..

But sometime showing my care to other people means you open up yourself to be hurt, to be dissappointed, to be treated like a garbage, to create more problems for myself once again..

I'm really feeling negative now..

And really alone deep down inside..